Fading Away

Always told to watch my weight
Be a good boy and wash your face
I wanted to fade away...........Yes----I wanted to fade away
My body was there but my mind fucked up
A pounding fist and tables would break
I wanted to fade away......disappear....dissipate
But how do you live??????
I want to know
The ways to forget about it..........
I took my pills and enjoyed the high
Always down for the codone ride
I wanted to fade away............Yes----I wanted to fade away
I rubbed his hair and I kissed his lips
Never asked their names, didn't give a shit
I wanted to fade away-------Yes...I wanted to fade away
And I want to rest beside the moon
Outside my room will lay a movie stars view
Never that good boy---------Always in turmoil
I dried her tears as she went to sleep
Prayed the lord our souls to keep
I took the lashings.....so she could move past it
Now......I'm 31 and I've cleaned up
I won't get high....still I have bad luck
Slowly I'm fading................Yes-----slowly I'm fading..................2003:Ronnie/Harry Spady