If Anna Nicole Can Lose Weight .....So Can I

Anna Nicole Smith....Has lost 50 pounds and has
inspired me

I have mentioned before how beautiful I think Anna Nicole Smith is. Even at her heaviest of weight...she still was and is Gorgeous. I loved her reality television show that ran on the E! Network, but now after having been granted her multi millions from her deceased husbands fortune, she will no longer be doing her show. But my main reason for this post is this.....Anna Nicole Smith has lost 50 pounds. Anna claims she accomplished this by using Trim Spa.
Now, I know what everyone is thinking...."Ronnie....YOU were the one claiming that BIG is beautiful.......You LOATHE Skinny Evil Bitches....So why would you want to lose weight?"
My answer is this. I HAVE to. I don't care about being skinny. I care about being healthy. I currently have to take a total of three anti-hypertension medications a day. I am 31 years old and have hypertension, or high blood pressure, whichever you prefer. I do not want to die young. I think I look fine. Mark thinks I look fine...but in reality I am not fine.
Weight has been an ongoing battle with me for years. When in a room, others are more inclined to classify me as being chubby....not fat. I am very proportionate with my weight. I say what the fuck ever, I am REAL SIZE, Fabulous And Thick (F.A.T.)
There's still much more I want to do with my life. I want to be around to continue to watch my nephew grow. I want to grow old with Mark. I want to LIVE.
So, I am doing it. My hypertension can be controlled IF I lose some weight. So..... I have purchased my own bottle of *Trim Spa. So, with that and a combination of cardiovascular exercise and a proper diet. I am ready to begin my mission. I will not however, KILL myself doing this. If it happens, It happens.
I am currently 5' 8" and weigh none of your god damn business...but I truly am aiming for the weight I was a few years ago. That being 180 pounds.
I am not going to be all cranky because of going on this diet. That will only set me up for failure and no one is to blame for this situation but myself. I was not ever Force Fed for christs sake!! I am looking at this as not a diet...but more of a change in my day to day eating habits. A chance for me to extend the success rate of my actual life.