Writings

Throw away your vindicating charade of life
Masquerading around as a fools' fool
Stand high on the brink of your own demise
Falling and impaling onto your own nightmare------And I..........Then hear
From the heart of darkness you call to me
I hear you feed on your nothing
Clawing at your eyes in an attempt to erase
The images of the faces you long ago crucified
Attempting to hold onto the veiled shadows
Holding onto them to let them know that you're there
You thought you were so much closer...to the point of changing me
Surprised that I would never rest inside your mouth of conformity.
And now here you lay bound
Devoured by darkness
Your chest is heavy
And everything is fading
An intoxicating need...........believing to breathe.........Harry/Ronnie Spady:2003

This next writing is one that I not only have written but have also made music too. Just me singing, lots of candles, and the piano. Those are the moments I live for. I personally feel that THIS writing and arrangement is MY best since that of "Shadow Hill".

I Can't Compete With You

Pardon me..........May I have a moment of your time?
There's a few things I need to say
Funny now.......the time has finally arrived
And now I'm not sure what to say
I've not been able to sleep at night
And my conscious is weighed heavily
But I can't remain a part in this game
It's not fair to me or to you...and I have to face up to the truth
I will not deny and there's no need to lie
That I can't compete with you.

He spends each free moment
Cradled in my arms
When you leave......and he -----has the time
He tells me he loves me
He even gave me this ring
But...........I don't think it means anything
You saw him first
And as much as this hurts
Giving him back is the right thing to do
It's ok for me to cry.......I've already told him goodbye
Because i won't compete with you

You have his children
You make him his home
And everything is yours that he owns
He lends out his heart and that you should know
He'll never leave you and I would never ask him to.........But I won't be the only one to blame

I see the pain---------etched across your face
Hurting anyone was the last thing I wanted to ever do
I won't lie and say that I know how you feel
Because I have never walked in your shoes.
Just know I've let him go.............. So, I'm moving on............
Because I can't compete with you..............Ronnie/Harry Spady:2003