I can't think of anything to truly write about today. So, since I placed an earlier entryon here and recieved a few emails telling me how much it was enjoyed, I thought...."OK....why not place a RECENT Diary (Journal) entry for some to enjoy and see a bit more depth to me." Enjoy

May 30th, 2004

Nestled here on the beach, I begin this entry. Mark is up at the house hovering over work. I feel guilty at times, complaining about how much he does work, but in reality, now I see that in doing that merely makes me selfish. He is simply trying his best to be a good husband and a good provider for me.....for us, Not just for us....but for his patients. He strives everyday to be the absolute best in whatever he is doing. Being a husband, a doctor, a healer and a comforter. It takes a very special person to juggle all of these daily tasks and not end frazzled or a complainer. So....for once, I need to shut my hole (mouth) and support him more than I have been doing. I can't imagine life without him. No...i don't WANT to attempt trying to imagine life without him. He has taught me so much about life, myself and the true inner core of my being.
Looking back at what I have done over the past year has required an element of discipline~~~~there are always a hundred other things to do. I am celebrating a one year anniversary on my blog and when I read the begining entries and up to present I am astonished at myself and accomplishments. I enjoy writing. Granted, I am not the most intellectual of people...but I am also far from inferior. Writing is so cathartic for me. Sometimes I get a little scared that I will be judged or criticised for being so honest and going on about myself. But actually I have nothing to hide and in a way, I hope that when I share my expierences (good and bad) the message I will get across is that we're not alone in this thing called life. It's hard sometimes, it's funny, it's serious, it's silly, it's ridiculous, but we're all in it together!!!!!
Right now, I feel like I am completing a circle. I feel really happy and optimistic about life. I care less what people think as time goes on. Rather than trying to seek out approval, I've come to believe it's what makes me happy that matters. And it takes a lot of guts to admit that!!!
Finding peace and solace, strengthens me and my inner peace. When that occurs and brings me happiness and a sense of worth while. It strengthens not only myself, but also the relationship to my husband, family and friends...Time to begin dinner.....Later