Just For The Record

I have received a few emails from readers expressing their opinions over the direction that my blog has taken. They all pretty much expressed that they miss how it "use to be". They basically miss some of the features I once displayed on here. Namely, the Designing Women Episode quotes and The Stevie Nicks Trivia.

To that I say this. Number one....For Designing Women quotes you can visit this wonderful site that has numerous pages filled with quotes from nearly every episode and plus alot more. Just click HERE.
Number two....Stevie Nicks Trivia can be played on Stevie's Official Web Site. That link is to the right in the "LINKS" section of this blog. The web master doesn't change this trivia everyday but still it's there. Also, Re had expressed some interest in the past about possibly doing this on her blog. So, if you all would click her link and go visit her, I am sure she might be persuaded. She has a new look to her blog,she is a fantastic poet,in your face opinions and deserves to be visited every fuckin' day so go do it. I'm certain that after reading her recent entries and browsing her archives you to will want to add her as a link.

Personally,my view point on my blog is this. When I first began over a year ago, I wasn't sure of it's direction. I wrote about topics that interested me during that time. I always kept in my mind what my then boyfriend Tom told me about a blog. He said "It's YOUR blog...write about what you want." In most of it's entirety, I did and have stayed true to that. But, I have grown and in doing not only have my thoughts and viewpoints changed but so have my ambitions and goals in my life. It seems that atleast once a week I have posted how I have changed and that I have grown and while it is true. looking back now I can't help but to ask myself if I am in someway seeking approval from people for having done it. In a way, I think it has alot to do with a problem that I have always had.....being an Approval Seeker in some form. Maybe yes,maybe no....Im not sure. But what I am sure of is that at this very moment MY blog coincides with where I am at right now in my life. Everything that is happening with me. My writing,my thoughts,my relationships with family and friends. It's my online journal. It's who I am. Like it OR not.

I have turned away from saying and writing things that I thought people only wanted to hear. I write what I am feeling and thinking. I am writing about LIFE. Instead of hurting others, I want to help others. I am in a position now in my life where I can do that. I can visit the local Narcotics Anonomyous Chapter on Meeting Nights and speak about my expierences. Maybe in doing it reaching one person. I want a child. I want to volunteer my nursing services to helping sick children, Victims to AIDS, Victims of spouse abuse. I want to be a voice for someone. An advocate. I want to give something back. There is a reason I have been through what I have in my life and survived. And YES.......many people have been through the same if not more. In no way am I saying that my expierences are any more important or less. What I am saying is for me.....I want to give back....I want to share and hopefully help.

Some days are better than others for me. On some occassions I can still be a complete bitch, who at that point in time may not care about anyone else's feelings but my own. Some days are grand. I am still a long long way from the ideal person that I want to be. But, I am trying...and I'm only trying because I want to...not because someone or anyone has said that I should. Someday, I want to move from the stage of conscious effort of trying and slide into a natural effort stage. It will happen.

So, basically, what I am saying is that those who began this blog journey with me. I hope they continue to follow. But, if they don't that's ok too. This is where I am at personally and professionally. It's honest. It's refreshing. It's MY life.