One Of My Newly Found Pleasures

Recently, I have not only attempted but have successfully ensured that I perform meditation at some point during my day. I never realized how therapeutic it is for one. It has aided in curbing many mood swings that i would normally expierence through out a 24 hour period. I choose my battles more wisely, instead of instantly lashing out and being cruel. I will not allow negativity to drain energy that i can focus and place onto more positive things. Mark and I have been disagreeing all week on my wanting to return to a work enviroment. I want to resume working and he prefers that i not. He has come to understand my point of view on this matter and i his. So, we have met on neutral ground on this matter. Two years ago, or hell even 7 months ago, this would have never happened. I would flown off the handle, done things my way and would have reaped the consequences later. But i truly feel that through meditation and therapy i am slowly evolving.

My belief is this. ENERGY. Simple as that. I have complete control on any type of energy that is used in my life. I have the power to manage it, block it and restore it. Every living thing contains its own energy. We as humans not only conduct electricity but have the power of inventing it. Both negative and positive, though it usually is more felt than seen. For instance, when i hear Stevie Nicks sing one of my favorite songs. The energy i receive that makes me feel alive and inspired. When, I leave the therapist after a session, i walk away completely charged up and wanting to change my life for the better. Or the pride i felt when as a nurse, I would have a patient that i took care of, walk up to me in a store and introduce me to a friend of theirs and say to them "This was the nurse that took such great care of me....Thank You." All emotions are a form of energy.
For every negative person and expierence we encounter, there is an equal positive energy availiable to us. Tapping into that positive power and using it is what attracts and draws other people to us.

Recently, i decided to make a list of the following things and use this list for my life. Every morning i find something positive about myself and remind myself of that positive find through out the course of the day. I wrote a list of my friends. The ones who always make me feel more hopeful I am moving closer to and the ones who suck my positive energy dry and attempt to blanket that area with negativity I am moving farther from.

For me now, it is all about finding energy everyday, maintaining the positive and having the wisdom to know when to turn the negative off.