Sorry that I havent posted in a while. I am still here amongst the living...although it doesn't quite feel fair to be.
For the past week and a half now, It seems that death has done nothing but drape its ugly cloth all around me.
Last week, I had to fly out to Seattle, Washington and spend the week with my friend Pam, as her 19 year military old son was found half hung while in his barracks at Fort Benning, GA.. Early this morning at 2:30 A.M., Mark and I were awakened by the ringing of the telephone. My friend, Bridgette was calling to alert me that our dear friend, Doris, whom we both had worked with for years, was struck by an automobile at 11:00 P.M. The car, after dragging her for a moment, sped off of the scene. Her 16 year old son was present and watched helplessly. My heart goes out to him and her family. I keep asking myself....what in the fuck makes a person drive away from an accident...especially when you KNOW you have just fucking killed somebody.....HOW in the HELL can you lay your fucking head down at night???? Whoever he or she is that committed this horrible, horrible act ... I hope every time you attempt to lay your head down at night and attempt to close your eyes...you HEAR Doris and you SEE her son crying behind your closed eyelids. May you NEVER sleep for ONE single moment until you confess to what you have done and face to the hurt you have caused.
Today, I had planned to type about Pam's son and the circumstances that cloud his death.....but I can't feel anything right now. In all honesty, I am still grieving for Doris.
Doris Campbell was 34 years old and wonderful mother and friend. She worked at Shore Memorial Hospitol and also worked as a Nursing Assistant at my nephews school. She was never without a smile or a kind word. My nephew, like I , thought the world of Doris........that's all i can say for right now.