In the past everyone seems to have enjoyed the various "Interviews" I have done with people who are involved in my life. This week, my ex, Stephen, and I took some time from our schedules and spent a day having lunch and beach combing. I figure that an interview with Stephen would be kind of cool. I spent the vast majority of my Twenties in a relationship with this man. We were both young and in love. His consisted of kindness, over protection and an out pouring of love. At the time, mine consisted of taking his love,abusing it and figuring how and where I was getting my next fix. In the end, I chose my addiction over him. BUT thankfully, Life every now and then allows for reunions and second chances. In mine and Stephen's case it is not a second chance in a sexual relationship, but something even better........ a second chance in being friends and confidants.

Me: Well, Stephen....now's your chance (laughing)...you can dish dirt about me.

Stephen: You dish your own dirt. No one has any dirty laundry to air on you. You hang that laundry out to dry yourself (laughing).

Me: True. You know, even if someone were to attempt and write or say something about me for shock value, it really wouldn't be shocking..... if it is something that i have never personaly confessed to or shared I would admit openly if i did infact do it or not. If I was man enough to do it...I am man enough to admit to have and done it

Stephen: That's where you and I differ. Physically, I know that I could "take you down" and well....am just stronger (flexing his muscles and laughing)....but mentally and emotionally........YOU are one of the strongest individuals I know.

Me: Not all the time....most of the time I would say. I am overtly sensitive in some area's...a little to sensitive sometimes. Like me and Re' were discussing a while back the effect's the 9/11 attacks had on each of us. I wasn't there, but it truly sent me into a deep depression. Basically, it struck me, as i am sure it did alot of people, that we never know when the last time will be when we see our loved ones and the it was the first time in a long time when I didn't feel safe anymore. Everyday we go through life thinking we live in a country that stands proudly with its chest poked out and basically sending a message to the rest of the world that we are "Unbeatable"....when in fact, we are not. There's a song about the attacks by some country music artist that has the lryics..."The day the Statue Of Liberty was brought to her knees." That's how I felt.

Stephen: I can see where that incident had that type of effect on you. You ARE sensitive, BUT most of the time, you never allow others to SEE you that way. You possess a creative side alone that is truly eye catching and attractive, most people who possess those qualities/talents are very sensitive people in one area or another. But, you found the way to get yourself out of it....you alway's have.

Me: What did you do when you heard of the attacks?

Stephen: I was at work and I instantly called my parents. I had to hear my mothers voice....I felt like a child again. Needing that reassurance and motherly comforting.

Me: I know that you are DYING to ask me some questions. So go ahead. All the questions you wanted to ask me but haven't...all the answers you have always wanted and would like for people to see (People do read this stuff you know.) So be careful what you ask for. (Laughing)

Stephen: Well, people who read your blog, know me as "The Ex". They have read your views and opinions in regards to mine and yours relationship.....So, I would like to tell mine.

(Continued Tomorrow)